God I don't know how much longer I can take of this pregnancy! I am sick of being a fat fucking cow, I am sick of not being able to work out like I used to, I am SO FUCKING SICK of just being fat and unattractive!!!! This is honestly becoming depressing again, I am so aggravated and my patience has ran it's course. I have everything now, everything I need but no baby yet and knowing my luck he won't come until his due date. I don't think I can handle 3 more weeks, I just cannot take this anymore. There was a time in my life that I feared labor and the pain, but now I look forward to it, I want it and anticipate it, I no longer fear it.
I don't think there is a single person within a city's radius that understands what I am feeling or going through, mainly because the majority of women I know are selfish and don't hardly want much to do with their kids. Not to mention they don't mind being fat, or using it as an excuse to eat more and be even more lazier than they already are. I just don't know how much more I can take of this, I honestly feel myself hitting that suicidal point again.
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