Trying to Deal with my Insecurities

  I kind of knew this would happen, after giving birth I would have a while before my body would tone down but damn it this is extremely difficult to deal with. It took me 1 and a half year to tone and slim down my thighs to a point I can feel comfortable with and wear my short shorts without feeling like shit, and it took me a year to get my stomach tone and tight enough for me to actually feel happy with. 90% of this came from going to the gym for one hour, 5 days a week for 4 months of strength training to lose 25 lbs, and then the running and training that burned off the fat. I am not able to go to the gym now, and I don't know what good the Half Marathon training this summer will do now.......... I miss this body

My thighs weren't yet perfect but I was feeling pretty satisfied with where my body was going, and I wonder when and if I will ever see this again.......... or at least within the next 5 years.