Ten Day Forecast

   Dorian is 10 days old today, things have been a little hectic but being my first baby and the early days of his life it is completely understandable and I don't mind at all. The weather has been a little chilly and is going to be pretty cool this week, but I want to start walking again while making sure Dorian is comfortable and warm. Part of me wants to get back to running real bad, but honestly I could care less right now, Dorian is my world and running can wait  until Jumpstart begins on May 21 or 24. There are 3 things in my world that mean more to me than my own life, Molly came to me in '99 and has been my shadow since, then Cameron who came into my life in 2002, and now my greatest miracle and the center of my world; Dorian has come into my life this year. I wondered during pregnancy how much I would love him, I had imagined him for almost 2 decades, dreaming and fantasizing his image, his personality and his father. Dorian is so much more than I ever imagined, he is so beautiful and I would do anything for him.
    I have slowly begun my ab workouts last night, slowly and carefully but focusing more on my core right now. I am not in any real big hurry, not as hell bent as I used to be with Dorian here. My health and fitness is a priority but not above Dorian, and I have already gotten down to my 5 month body, though my abs are a little "flabby" and exhausted still from the stretching which I hope with some walking and plank position and a few other ab workouts will change that. I am doing my best to keep up on calories, it has been difficult to get up around 2400-2700 calories, especially with Dorian hitting these sudden growth spurts and ravenous feedings. I can hardly keep up with him, my b**bs are probably thinking "oh my god!! Give us a break!!" lol but Gina says that my supply will pick up speed so I am trying not to worry.
     Cameron wanted to take me to the movies last Friday, to give me a break while my mom watch Dorian, but I told him even though I really appreciated it I just don't feel comfortable leaving him for even a couple hours yet. The Godsmack concert is May 6th, and around 3 or 4 hours long, I am still not comfortable with it but more comfortable with him being close to a month old than right now and especially while still working  on the breastfeeding which he is doing really well with though I do sometimes pump so that I have a bottle late at night to give my br**sts a break. He is so adorable!

 9 Days Old

 8 Days old