Today I went for what is probably my last lesson and ride with Booger, I wanted to cry but I did not want to look like a sissy. Our lesson had an audience which really sucked, I wasn't feeling myself and haven't worked on our training so much, so things did not go too well then. The riding went really well though, and Jill said the lease ends this Thursday so I can come out anytime until then and ride him. I can also come out for $20 anytime and work with him as long as I have a lesson at least every other week. It is painful to give him up, knowing that somebody will probably end up buying him before the year is over with.
The band thing is getting old, I do not know why or when it started but I just wish Cameron would end it already - as selfish as that might sound but the band is never going to go anywhere even if he wants to become famous in just this city, that isn't going to happen and he is wasting time and thousands of dollars on it. Alright, I have not been myself lately and have been very irritated, the only time I am actually enjoying life is when I am running, and that is only 3 times a week.
Anyways, maybe I will be able to start riding again in a couple of months; maybe Cameron will allow it. I doubt Booger will be there still, but maybe I should look at a younger horse, one closer to his teens maybe between 11 and 17 years old so I can do a lot more with him and a lot longer. I love Booger and will always wish that this had worked out, hopefully he will have a better home either way.
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