Ugh, the Good Will Never Outweigh the Bad

  Even though the business was "saved" from really difficult times this morning by one of our best Dealers, my warm and happy feelings are never allowed to last. A week before the Evansville Half, I had registered for the Indy Monumental Half that is on my birthday (November 3), but after the Evansville Half, I contemplated that it might be a smarter idea not to try for another Half a month away........ but last week I started thinking about it again, my leg/s have been feeling much better and a run/walk split wouldn't hurt too bad. We were going to go anyways, even if I didn't run the race because I wanted to take Dorian to the zoo, but Friday Cameron suggested we cancel due to money. Today I found out the real reason why, Cameron and them decided they were going to have a rock show that night, Halloween themed. Instead of throwing it this weekend, a couple days before Halloween but still in October, they decide to throw it on my birthday, a couple of days after Halloween and in November. As usual, I am always on the back burner of everyone's thoughts and considerations, so it wouldn't have mattered if I had made my mind up to run that race because it would have been canceled anyways. I am so sick and tired of this crap, first my sister decides to have her wedding on my 20th birthday, with a man she doesn't even care for so now my birthday is also a reminder of their "lie". Now this, it could have been on Friday, heck it could have been this weekend which would make more sense BUT HECK NO as usual. I can't even complain about it, because I'll seem like the a**hole since it is the band and anyone who gets in the way of the "band" is a dirt bag.
  Today has gone from decent to crap once again, and I am so ready for it to be over. I think Shauna and I are going to try for 3.5 miles tonight, I should be okay with that. I went ahead and searched for a smaller race, Shauna is itching for one and I found the Get Dirty 5k at Angel Mounds, it is on November 24th this year, they had 3 options (5k, 10k, 15k) and I went ahead and paid for the 5k option because I don't know if I am ready for a 10k trail/obstacle race yet. This will at least test our ability on obstacle courses, preparing us for the Spartan Race next April.