Business has slowed down a lot, I am actually getting more and more worried each day. I want to dig a hole, crawl in it and hide. On a happier note, Dorian is doing real well, yesterday he went to his 6 month wellness check up and the doctor was pleased and stated how great he is doing. He is 2'3" and weighs 16 lbs 12 oz, he is in the 75% for his height and the 40% for his weight which I feel is good though it doesn't tell his future. I was in a very high percentile for my weight when I was a baby and although I was heavy all my life until about 2 years ago, I had to make my own life changes. Dorian will have a head start though, I will ensure that he eats healthy and smart, and that I set examples for him in the area of diet and exercise. Sadly it took me 17-18 years to figure out that I had to make the choice instead of depending on someone else.
Yesterday I went for a bike ride, my plan was 8 miles but I ended up riding 10.7 miles which is awesome though I feel like I ran 6-8 miles today lol. I did that in one hour and 4 minutes, probably the fastest I will ever do almost 11 miles ha. That was after my 2 mile run early that morning, which was still sore but not even close to a week or so ago, the bottom of my left foot is no longer in pain so that is good. I am still debating today whether I walk with my mom or rollerblade while she walks, Cameron didn't go bike riding with me yesterday because he was busy with a machine, he wants to go today but I don't want to have to ask mom to watch Dorian every single day. She keeps hinting that she would like to be able to watch him and my nephew and niece together at my sister's house BUT I don't want Dorian around those two, mainly my nephew. He has become so hateful and will scream "I hate you" or "I'm gonna kill you!", of course it is my sister and brother-in-law's fault, they should have never gotten married, let alone had kids together, they are both very selfish and there isn't any real love between them. The moment they are in a room together, you can literally cut the air with a knife, the tension is so thick and those kids are learning and growing up in that house. Even if my brother-in-law isn't there, I still don't want my son in that house around all that hate and tension, Cameron and I both agreed that we want to lay a strong foundation of love, security and trust down in his first 2 years of life before he goes around other kids other than the holidays.
I haven't talked to her about it, but hopefully she will understand and won't get too angry about it.
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