This whole week has been complete shit, for so many reasons that I don't want to begin to state them. My insecurities and anxieties are so much louder than they have ever been, and I cannot ignore them for the sake of my sanity. I feel myself breaking and falling apart, and there is nobody I can talk to because everyone seems to think that he is pretty much an angel and I am beginning to really question that.
I cannot function mentally, my mind is so bogged up and distracted that everything is bottle necking and I am too helpless to do anything about it. I don't know if it is going to improve or get worse, nothing is able to take my mind off of all these bad things. I am beginning to think that life is going to stay this way, because I pretty much have no choice other than downhill.
Tomorrow morning I have to run 3 miles, tonight the band has a gig at the Eagles club - 8 p.m to 10 p.m and I will be leaving at 10 to go home and hit the sack because knowing Cameron, he will come in and wake my ass up talking about shit which I won't care because I am trying to sleep. I know my sleep is going to be fucked up because of them, they don't give a shit about me and how I feel or the things I do.
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