I am extremely nervous, in about 10 hours I will be running a 4 mile race. I wouldn't be so nervous if it wasn't for my legs still being tight and sore from Tuesday's workout, it is really just around my knee area. I am also really excited, I always get excited before a race though.... I guess it is the competitor in me, I love races because the adrenaline and thrill of everyone else around me, it just gets me so pumped.
Besides that, as usual my husband is being an asshole which isn't unusual so I don't know why it is bothering me. I just can't stand this one sided, bullshit relationship, as long as life isn't inconveniencing him, he couldn't care less who it is affecting. Sometimes I really don't know why I even bothering trying to wonder why he doesn't care about my life, he has made it pretty clear that the only thing important in my life to him is HIM period. He couldn't care less about my running, races, riding lessons, fitness, or anything and yet I have got to be interested in everything going on in his life and world. It is just bullshit and gets pretty tiring, because when I react, he blames me for any drifting our relationship might be doing, rather than looking in the mirror and seeing how one sided he is making this relationship. On a better note, the race is tomorrow, and then it will be more than another month before my next one, so I will be able to heal and get back into shape for that one.
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