So Far in My Life

  So far life has taken me on an amazing journey and it has gotten even better since Dorian has come into my life, granted I don't get as much sleep as I used to but his smiles and personality make up for it. My little angel is going to be a year old in just a little over a week, he has been walking since March 12 and is already trying to run which is just awesome. He will spend hours at home in the evening walking, and trying to run; if he falls down then he will get back up either by himself or using the couch or recliner to pull himself up and do it all over again. This little guy wants to walk, run and climb faster than his body is capable yet, and it has been an awesome experience watching him. I am going to miss this little guy so much when he's gone, I tear up just thinking about the little guy he used to be but isn't anymore and I miss it already. I love how he'll look up at me and smile, or want a kiss and then laugh, I love how his eyes shine with so much happiness and love. I hope and pray that I can keep him safe for as long as he depends on me, I hope I can build his character and assist him in growing to become a strong, kind-hearted man that knows right from wrong and isn't afraid to walk his own path and sometimes against the current of others. I love this little boy so much, a love I could never imagine before I first looked into his eyes.
   My first Half Marathon of 2013 is coming up just around the corner, actually I am pretty much on the same block as it now. The St. Louis Half Marathon is this Sunday, and I am so excited and a little nervous though not like I used to be. I feel like a Thoroughbred kicking at the starting gate, ready to run free and strong, and as fast as my legs will allow me and my heart desires. The last two Half Marathons had something going on, and the first that never happened was my most serious injury so far and it taught me a lot. The first Half was when I was 13 weeks pregnant and I had the ongoing sensation of needing to pee the whole race so I never really picked up the pace like I wanted and I made 5 bathroom stops along the way losing an overall 10 minutes on my time. The second Half last year I endured an injury to my groin or quad most likely due to starting up my training too soon after giving birth when my body still needed time to heal and recover. This year is different, I am more than ready for this race; I have trained hard and smart all Winter and this time it is going to be much different.