Molly went in this morning for her surgery, to remove the two tumors on her eyelids (one on each side). She was very reluctant about going to the back with the assistant, I hate leaving her there especially as she is getting older. Today is going by so slowly now, I've got to wait until 1 p.m before I can call and see how she is doing and it is only 10:40 a.m now. Molly will be 14 years old this November, and she has finally begun to slow down in the last 2 months which is difficult for me to observe while knowing that her journey is almost at an end. I wanted to take her to the Rockies at least once, to go hiking there in the mountains and it just doesn't look like that is going to happen. I don't feel as scared about losing her as I did before Dorian, and I feel kind of bad about it. I am trying to keep my mind off of it, but it is difficult. I was in high hopes that she would live to 16-17 years old but in the last couple of months she has really slowed down and is actually starting to behave like a senior dog so I am not sure how much longer she has.
I wonder if she will make it to her 15th birthday, I mean I think she will as long as I don't push her anymore. I haven't really taken her for walks this summer due to the heat, and I probably won't have her do too much more than our little hikes at Angel Mounds trails this winter. I am not going to try and keep her alive if she is suffering and there isn't logically anything that can take the pain away, and I don't mean pills and constant visits to the vet. I decided on this surgery because it is causing her irritation and pain, but keeping them wouldn't kill her but make her completely miserable and blind someday. I don't want her to suffer any if at all during the last couple years, months or weeks of her life. The only thing after these tumors will be keeping her mouth and teeth as clean as possible and taking pee samples in annually to make sure the bladder stones aren't coming back.
Ugh, the hours are going by way to slow damn it!
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