Life Looks to Only Get Worse

   I don't know anymore, I just don't know how much more I can take and it is really weighing down on me now. I am being told that since becoming pregnant my hormones and moods have just abruptly sky rocketed out of control, but I have not noticed much difference from before pregnancy. It is just stressful and driving me to a point of madness that I cannot bare much longer. I feel as if I must tip toe and watch my p's and q's even more so than before, letting others walk all over me while I stay quiet and take it all. I feel as if I am not allowed to have an opinion, let alone emotions or moods without being threatened and made to feel like a total bitch. I just don't know what to do anymore, because I don't see any real change in my moods, I mean yes I have been feeling more overwhelmed and distraught with so many things going through my mind, so many worries and concerns that I feel are already out of my control but I do not feel as though any of that as affected my moods or increased them. Hopeless and at a loss now more than ever, I not only have a child on the way but 4 cats in my care and an senior dog, with nowhere but my jeep for shelter if things go south between me and Cameron...... it has been a very long time since I felt this much grief and pain, the desire to give up is getting stronger and I do not know if I have it in me to keep going anymore. And what makes it worse is the fact that today is our Wedding Anniversary and it has been nothing but a shitty day already.