While on the phone with my mom, talking about a few things and her watching Dorian tomorrow and Friday she told me that she was going to start Zumba classes next week. Good for her, except that sucks for me. Those classes are on Tuesdays and Thursdays, two of the days that I run during the week. Basically the only days she will be watching him now are Fridays and maybe Sundays during my long run (if that one at all). It sucks, I hate feeling a little mad at her for doing this but I know she wants to get into something to get healthy and I am happy for her, but now this completely screws me up. I only really have her or Cameron to watch him, and Cameron is busy like everyday except for maybe the weekend. If I wait until Cameron gets home on those nights, it will be 10-11 p.m before I even get my run in and I don't want to run that late all the time and on the same route. If I was to try and get out and run around 5:30 a.m after getting Dorian back to sleep, he could wake up and then wake Cameron up who would be extremely pissed off at me. The more and more I think about it, but more angry I get. I don't trust other people and I really don't feel comfortable looking for a babysitter.... I am very picky of who influences my son,and he is becoming very needy and attached to me here lately.
I think I might have to end up buying a treadmill, Ethan should be moving out soon, hopefully before Spring so then I could have the treadmill in his old room. My grandma has a treadmill (I think), maybe I could go there with Dorian and she could watch him while I run........... but he would have to start getting used to her because I don't know how well he would do.
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