Crappy News Today

  While on the phone with my mom, talking about a few things and her watching Dorian tomorrow and Friday she told me that she was going to start Zumba classes next week. Good for her, except that sucks for me. Those classes are on Tuesdays and Thursdays, two of the days that I run during the week. Basically the only days she will be watching him now are Fridays and maybe Sundays during my long run (if that one at all). It sucks, I hate feeling a little mad at her for doing this but I know she wants to get into something to get healthy and I am happy for her, but now this completely screws me up. I only really have her or Cameron to watch him, and Cameron is busy like everyday except for maybe the weekend. If I wait until Cameron gets home on those nights, it will be 10-11 p.m before I even get my run in and I don't want to run that late all the time and on the same route. If I was to try and get out and run around 5:30 a.m after getting Dorian back to sleep, he could wake up and then wake Cameron up who would be extremely pissed off at me. The more and more I think about it, but more angry I get. I don't trust other people and I really don't feel comfortable looking for a babysitter.... I am very picky of who influences my son,and he is becoming very needy and attached to me here lately.
    I think I might have to end up buying a treadmill, Ethan should be moving out soon, hopefully before Spring so then I could have the treadmill in his old room. My grandma has a treadmill (I think), maybe I could go there with Dorian and she could watch him while I run........... but he would have to start getting used to her because I don't know how well he would do. 

There Might be a Chance!

  I purchased these super absorbent diapers for Dorian, there supposed to be for night time sleep. Last night he fell asleep at 7, but I decided to wake him up around 9 so I could run to the store and get bacon for breakfast. He had his last feeding at almost midnight, I then put an absorbent diaper on him and he eventually fell asleep around 12:30. Other than me waking up to go to the restroom around whatever time, he didn't wake up. I woke him up at 7 a.m, fed him and then he went back to sleep. It is now 8:26 a.m and he is still asleep, and it has me really excited. I think that if this isn't just a coincidence and the diapers are what help, I might be able to actually go to the gym in the morning!

So Much Going on in 2013

  It is hard to be able to sit back and watch my son grow when the threat of a dictatorship is looming over my country, the thought of something happening to my son has me in such a state of fear I sometimes can't sleep. I try to enjoy every moment with him, I try to enjoy watching his personality begin to shine through while also looking back on the last 9 months. It is hard to be 100% happy when everything could be taken away from us in an instant, all because of greed for power and control.
  On another note, I also have 4 half marathons this year along with smaller races so I am trying to think about them too. My mileage is climbing but my weight is either sticking around 143 and I can also see my gut/stomach sticking out. It is aggravating to not be losing weight, and not know what to do to get off this plateau that I have been stuck on. 
  The business is doing really well right now, mainly because people are worried about Obama's gun ban that is coming up, I am so sick of this pompous baboon people call our president but I am honestly sick of the government period. Why could I have lived during one of our first 20 presidents???