Bad new as Usual

     Last night I told my husband that Jill had invited me to stay after my Saturday lesson and watch her work the horses, even take photos. A few seconds later, he asked me how many lessons I was taking a week and told me no and that I should only take one a week. It is really aggravating, my plans and hopes were beginning to unfold, Jill had finally asked me to come by other than for lessons without me pushing it and I was/am hoping that after seeing my photos she will want to use my skills in maybe a trade or other horseowner friends will see my work and start asking. It is just irritating, Ethan gets paid every week now, doing something he likes to do. I am stuck in an office working as an secretary who has no respect from anyone because "I sit on my ass all day and do nothing", and I don't get shit for it. Not even a good job or how's it going or anything. I hate working in an office, I love physical labor, being out and lifting and pulling and just moving around. But I had decided to sacrifice that in order to help Cameron with the business even though I didn't know anything as to what I was doing in the first place (and still don't half the time). It just hurts and it is an insult to know that everyone thinks I love being in that office sitting on my ass all day, playing on a computer. And now I am told that I can only take one lesson a week????? Fuck that, I will do whatever I can to be around the horses and Jill and learn what I can, it is loke the only great thing I get out of this, the only upside of every week when being in that office blows ass.