Today's News

    Other than tonight's crappy news (Sammie and Tawny are headed here tonight), today's lesson was great. The new plan is one lesson a week (for now) on Saturdays, I worked on the trot more. I had Buzz trotting  the whole arena at some points and we circled the barrels and a cone a couple times (at a trot). I did great going counter-clockwise but then when Jill had me turn around and trot clockwise, I had a bit of difficulties. She told me if I need a horse fix anytime during the week, just message her on facebook and see if she is around the barn so I can come by and harass. Jill also told that when I am more experienced with riding, I will be able to lease Tater (have not met him yet) and ride him and many other things that I couldn't quite remember since I was concentrating on trotting Buzz around. Though I am feeling like Cameron's feelings about this are holding me back, I also feel another road might show itself to me soon. Right now these lessons and being around there is the closest thing to having my own horse, and I do not want to lose this opportunity now that it is finally in my grasp.

Bad new as Usual

     Last night I told my husband that Jill had invited me to stay after my Saturday lesson and watch her work the horses, even take photos. A few seconds later, he asked me how many lessons I was taking a week and told me no and that I should only take one a week. It is really aggravating, my plans and hopes were beginning to unfold, Jill had finally asked me to come by other than for lessons without me pushing it and I was/am hoping that after seeing my photos she will want to use my skills in maybe a trade or other horseowner friends will see my work and start asking. It is just irritating, Ethan gets paid every week now, doing something he likes to do. I am stuck in an office working as an secretary who has no respect from anyone because "I sit on my ass all day and do nothing", and I don't get shit for it. Not even a good job or how's it going or anything. I hate working in an office, I love physical labor, being out and lifting and pulling and just moving around. But I had decided to sacrifice that in order to help Cameron with the business even though I didn't know anything as to what I was doing in the first place (and still don't half the time). It just hurts and it is an insult to know that everyone thinks I love being in that office sitting on my ass all day, playing on a computer. And now I am told that I can only take one lesson a week????? Fuck that, I will do whatever I can to be around the horses and Jill and learn what I can, it is loke the only great thing I get out of this, the only upside of every week when being in that office blows ass.

Lonely but not quite Alone

     It would appear that you are the only thing listening to me, a blog that I write on. My everyday good/bad happenings logged on here because nobody else cares or wants to hear about them. I live in a house full of three other people and yet I might as well be alone here, I feel like such an idiot and a fool. For a second I almost thought my husband actually wanted to hear about what I had been doing, I feel like such an idiot to think that he would actually care about my interests or passions, I am such a stupid, stupid fool. I got excited in telling him about my lesson and how Jill agrees on pretty much the same things, only to be shot down because he was too busy and stressed out to hear any of it. Unfortunately that is always how it is, he never asks, never even pretends to hear me when I go on and on like a child about something I am excited or passionate about. I just need to grow up and stop believing that he is supposed to be somewhat interested in my individual life and activities......... I am especially glad that nobody reads my blogs, this kind of feels like a journal or online diary. From now on I am just going to remind myself not to bother talking about anything with him or anyone else, especially if they don't ask or want to hear it, the only one who has to tolerate me is you "blog", because you can not run away, close your ears or eyes from me. I am sorry if that sucks, but I need someone/something to dump all this into.

Another Day Thursday

Today's lesson was great, I had Buzz trot without Jill on the other end of a lead rope. I am getting more and more comfortable with riding and can't wait til the next ride. I am thinking about increasing it from two days a week to 3, just because I hate this waiting for two days in between. Today has been a very rainy day though, very dreary and depressing really, but not really bad at all. Tomorrow is Friday, hopefully we'll be going to Applebee's for Friday's lunch. This Saturday I think Jill said I could stay after my lesson and watch her work some horses and take photos. I am so excited, she is inviting me now other than just riding lessons.

So Many Good Things

I finished reading that wonderful book. I am so excited and can not wait til tomorrow night for my 3rd lesson. I have many more questions for Jill, and I hope she has read the book as well.

So Many Thoughts, So Many Questions

     Since yesterday when I drove past the shop, frustrated because again I had left for food (for everyone) and came back to see that my spot was taken. I decided on a whim that I'd go to the library and check out some books on horses, horse language and what not, I found myself blessed with Joe Camp's "The Soul of A Horse". I can not begin to explain the joy and satisfaction with reading this great book and knowledge, it is not only about horse language but the language and relationships that go on among a herd of horses. Everything people seem to believe is luxurious, great, safe and needed for their horse is completely wrong for these incredible creatures. I always suspected these things throughout my life, even with not owning a horse at all, I have always gone about believing that in order to have a true relationship with an animal, you must dive into their language, their world. This book has got me wanting more, every book and any kind of information I can find that is the truth, not some made up crap that helps vets and farriers and other people who make their money off crazy notions about how you must care for your beloved animal. At this moment, I am pretty sure that I will not have a barn for them, probably a run in shelter with three sides and maybe 3/4 of a 4th side where they can choose to go into for shelter. My horses will not wear horseshoes and their hooves will be trimmed when needed, I will do my best to create as natural an environment for these amazing creatures as I can while also building a bond with them and work on it everyday. I will make it my duty to care and nurture that bond before any ride or training, because I could only live without saddling and bridling a horse but maybe on the weekends if necessary, what matters more to me is just being around them, touching them, bonding and learning from them. I have learned so much just from this book and yet there is so much more to learn!

Today's Activities

      I was actually able to make it to the gym today, only did about 20 minutes of free weights after 18 minutes of walking 3.6 mph at an incline of 5%. I was feeling pretty sore so I went ahead and called it quits and went and took a shower. This week is going to be pretty busy and probably not too great even with my two horse riding lessons coming up Thursday and Saturday (might not even happen if what I expect does). I've been reading Joe Camp's "The Soul of A Horse" since yesterday afternoon and I can honestly say wow, everything I suspected but couldn't know for sure because I've never owned a horse, it is all true. I have a better idea of what I am going to do when the time comes to ready our land for horses and it will not involve a barn, maybe a tack shed and a run in shelter, but no barn.

Just Another Day To Climb

     Today's run was pretty satisfying, I did the same 2.22 mile run except that I had cut a whole minute off of Saturday's exact run. I did push myself quite a bit harder, just about to the point of exhaustion. I don't know if I am going to be able to run the mile with Cameron in an hour, I would like to. As far as today's little irritations, Ethan is definitely one of them and I beginning to lose all tolerance of his bullshit. Tonight we have our Chapter 3 test in Math, I am very excited and feel that I am ready for it. Last test I had received a 97% on it so I am definitely feeling great overall. I still can't get over last night's riding lesson, that was my first time every trotting before and even though it felt awkward for the first 5 minutes, it was beginning to feel very comfortable near the end.

Sunday Riding Lesson

Today's riding lesson was awesome! I learned the trot after a few walks around the arena and worked on the post (standing up in saddle) and the quick stop. At first it was a bit uncomfortable and weird, but after I learned to "peddle" in the seat, it started to get easy and even felt a bit natural although I will be wearing a sports bra for every riding lesson from now on. I might not have much but when on a horse that really doesn't make a difference, after a few times of trotting she began to show me how to "steer" using my legs and not so much my reins. It felt odd and I know my legs got a good work out from it. I finally told Cameron that I was taking lessons, I know he isn't too thrilled about it but hopefully he won't deny me this wonderful opportunity. Tomorrow we should be running, I hope that I am not sore from tonight's riding lesson.

Sunday and Early Spring Cleaning

      I woke up at around 7 this morning, maybe 7:30 and fixed breakfast, then we spent most of the day raking leaves and cleaning up the 2 acres that we live on. I can't wait until Rural King starts selling Lilacs and vegetables so I can put some beauty around the exterior of the house. Tonight I have my second riding lesson, and am very excited because I remember just about everything she showed me Thursday night. This weekend has been a pretty productive and good one, yesterday I did a total of 3.22 miles.... of course the first mile was with Cameron and 15 minutes later I went for a 2.22 mile run which had some soreness during the last mile but no soreness afterwards. I think I could possibly make it past my 3 mile wall before Spring. Anyways, meat loaf for tonight and then going to bed.

Today's Run

Cameron and I ran 1 mile and walked .40 miles, then after I had fixed him Cream of Chicken and crackers, I went for a 2.22 mile run, did it in under 24 minutes which I feel is pretty good after hustling to keep up with Cameron's strides. He can already feel himself getting stronger, pretty soon he'll be running a mile no problem. All in all I ran 3.22 miles today, not quite together but with 15 minutes between the 1 mile and the 2.22 miles which is still pretty good.

Another Day, Another Thought

      After fixing my peeps breakfast and making homemade gravy for the first time ever, I took my pups out to Angel Mounds Trail for a 30 minute hike through the woods. We ran into one man twice, he seemed alright but I couldn't help but feel lucky for having my dogs with me (call it paranoia). Now we are here at the shop, Cameron and I are going to go for our run here soon. I hope it doesn't rain today, and the weather looks like it will be staying above 40 for another 2 weeks so that is great. I will most likely either edit this post or make a new one after our run, not sure yet.

What Runner Am I?

      I was on RunnersWorld and took a little test to see what kind of runner I am, whether I was a short/speed work runner, a middle-distance runner or a long distance, cross country runner. Turns out I am in middle, not too bad since I kind of felt that way already.




19 to 26 points: You're a Middle-Distance Specialist
It may feel like the world revolves around the marathon, but you may not have to go that far to experience greatness: 10-milers and half-marathons could be for you. Some brush off middle distances as "practice." But running them, you'll find out how far and how fast you can run. And you'll be part of a renaissance-as 13.1-milers become the most popular races, many have taken on the big-league feel of marathons, and they don't require as much money and time.


    I can not help but wonder if I should put this in the Running blog, but I would really like to move away from 2 or 3 blogs and make it just one.

Thinking about Making just One Blog

     I have a lot more going on in my life than just running, working out and photography but it is difficult to add those things in either of those blogs. So I am thinking of just doing on blog that revolves around all those things and more. Now with this one blog, I can pretty much talk about everything and anything going on, what my thoughts are and etc. Starting today, yesterday was my first riding lesson in 10 years and I was excited and nervous at the same time. The horse was pretty calm and comfortable with me, and Jill the instructor kept mentioning at how well I was doing for my first time, she said that I rode naturally and pretty correct except I was trying to bend forward some but mainly I thought it felt straight to me. My next lesson is Sunday, the price is a bit much for us ($55.00 an hour) at this time, but if I am going to learn I might as well do it now. 
      Tomorrow is me and Cameron's run again, I am sure we will be running on the Greenway near Garvin Park and the shop again. I might run some more before or afterwards though, because 1 mile or less just won't do it for me, I think my cold/sinus is beginning to fade away. I didn't really work out this morning, I did do a couple of arm and back works:


Dumb bell Curl / 20 lbs / 4 sets of 12 reps
Front Dumb Bell Raise / 5 lbs / 4 sets of 12 reps
One Armed Dumb Bell Press / 15 lbs / 4 sets of 12 reps
Bent Over Dumb Bell Row / 15 lbs / 4 sets of 12 reps
Dumb Bell Extension (behind/above head) / 15 lbs / 3 sets of 12 reps


Anyways, I am sure I will write more today but I am busy at work so I will try to keep up with this one blog and maybe the others.